For those who have been around me in the past few months, I have been very anxious about this moment and have soooo frustrated because I thought it would never come! Ben had me soo fooled.
Katie, my lovely roommate, is in a photography class and asked if I could model for her at the beach on saturday for her class assignment. I had done that for her the previous weekend so I didnt think anything of it. She had also mentioned that she wanted to take me to get my nails done because I was helping her out... which I thought was a very generous thing, but not extremely out of the norm.
Earlier that morning, Ben came to visit me and hang out for the day because we hadnt seen each other in a little bit. He took me to breakfast and then we went kayaking. It was soo beautiful and we had a really fun time. During breakfast, I was in one of my outrageous moods and demanded answers! I was sooo frustrated, at this point, I had lost hope and was beginning to think it would never happend. Ben convinced me to "trust" him and that he just wasnt sure about the timing ( he constantly told me that!).
Ben said good bye to me around 2:00 because he had soo much homework to do... which is definitly not out of the norm! At this point I did not think anything was up.
Me and Katie headed off to our day and I was just excited to do something fun and different and so was Katie. She was acting a little weird though, but I thought she was just tired. She wasnt talking much! haha. I got a great manicure and was watching the Holiday. I called Ben even and he was completely calm and said he was at school doing homework. :(. Me and Katie got to the beach around 4:30 right before sunset, loaded the camera and started taking pictures up by the hotel in Laguna. I was really nervous! I had this feeling in the pit of my stomach. All this time I thought it could possible happen but I didnt want to psych myself up! BUT I was soo nervous. I was posing for all of these pictures, like a dork, and then Katie said that we should go down to the beach. We were walking down and I was enthralled with the hotel and looking at people and Katie was pacing and texting like a crazy person! haha. I didnt think much of it, but kinda wondering. We got down to the sand and then Katie told me to turn around and that the rose in the sand was for me. At this point, my heart was POUNDING, I felt like was going to throw up and scream for joy. I knew what was coming! There was a rose in the sand with a red construction paper heart with a poem, Ben's hand writing, that had a cute poem and told me to turn the corner. As I turned the corner, there were 46 rose with hearts around the roses with a bold word on each rose. The words spelled out a beautiful poem and on EACH heart there was a poem of its own with memories of our past (I still havent read them all). I was in a serious whirlwind. WHEW
I walked over to him after trying to quickly read the poem. He grabbed my hands nervously and started his speech, which I dont really remember much about... because my head was FREAKING out. I was looking around and saw Christian filming, my roomie Jamie taking pictures and weird people next to me taking pictures.
He was finishing up his speech and got down on one knee and said you are my pearly in this sea, Kimberly Renee Verkaik, Will you Marry Me ( i kinda thought there would be a pearl inside). He pulled out the ring and I didnt even let him put it on me because I just hugged him. Then he put it on and I have been going crazy ever since.
I am so emotionally exhausted. I never cried during the proposal, but after when I realized what was happening, I would start to cry. We took some pics, called people we loved!
The texts and calls rolled in.
UGH! I never thought this would come! It was a complete success.
We went to this Italian restaurant in Laguna and I dont even remember the food. We just talked and all of the secrets came out! I feel like Ben is a completely different person to me and that he was LYING to me for so long! ugh! I got played!
It was so hard for me to believe this because I honestly thought NOTHING was going on and even though we had talked about for sooo long and I was such a brat and was so curious, I knew nothing.
My life has completely changed and I honestly feel like I am in a dream. It is so crazy. We came back from dinner and my friends had a little engagement party with cupcakes with diamond rings on them and slide show of the engagement...already! I cannot believe it!
Everyone was so happy, which makes me happy and ends up making me cry! ALOT
I am sooo thankful for everyone in my life for making this day soo special and meaningful! I dont deserve any of this But ended up sooo lucky!
Let the wedding festivities BEGIN!
Oh geez! :)
